I've got text for you today, I've been neglecting blogging for a bit, I know I'm sorry but I swear I'll make it up to you. I've actually been working on my other blog for a magazine that I would like to start focusing on unique, bold, fun fashion and music. It's been taking some work but in the end it'll be all the worth in the world for me! I am also getting ready for my film class that I'm enrolled in for January 17th. Uggghhhh could not go slower to get there!! In the mean time I have a small project I'm working on to a really bad "poem" that I wrote. I am going to have to just film myself since anyone I ask to act for me ignores my requests, literally. I felt helpless. So gotta work with what I got. Here's the poem, and some pictures of Charlotte Free, I discovered who she was yesterday going through British Vouge. She's gorgeous AND awesome. Let's face it folks....
I'm fucking jealous.
i told myself i was going to do something with today,
water the plants, feed the cat, do some dishes,
and then i will be ready
ready to get my shit together and make something of myself.
to not be my regular shlum self , making excuses to push projects back, waiting for school to start , waiting until the end of the day.
Spending hours looking at apartments I could never afford in places I'd be lucky enough to see,
it seems i'm hoping I'll win the lottery without buying a ticket.
where is my life headed at the pace i'm going?
my walls are heavily decorated to keep my wandering eyes occupied as I keep myself locked in my room most of time.
i tell myself tomorrow
tomorrow i will go out, leave the house
leave the neighborhood
take pictures, read in the park , see a friend.
tomorrow
today it's better if i stay inside
stay in my room.
tomorrow
i will make something of myself.
today is now tomorrow
today is the day
today i'll do something with myself,
i'll water the plants , feed the cat, do some dishes , grab a coffee then i'll make something of myself
update Facebook status…hmmm..was that dumb? …
should i delete that?
no i think my humor translates…
no sales on easy today…
today
the words glide before my bare eyes.
shower
all of my best thinking is in the shower.
(singing)
(getting ready) god i can't stand to look at myself.
i couldn't do my make up faster or in a darker room
what the fuck to wear?
who cares?
well if i'm going to leave the house maybe i should dress up
(3-4 outfits later dresses plain)
hmm..i wonder if anyone thought that was funny..(goes to Facebook status)
c'mon!!
(smoking a cigarette looking at the messy room trying o clean)
i should really clean. i can't do anything until i clean.
(cleans)
well now it's pretty dark out earlier, day light savings time. hmm…maybe i should just go out tomorrow. today is no good
tomorrow
tomorrow i'll change my life
tomorrow i'll skip the shower and get up earlier
tomorrow
well now tomorrow is today.
-me
oh yeah this is for a film , this is just the narration of it.
